Saturday, May 26, 2007
Today is my first time bowling for SRC in inter-club league. However i screw almost all my games. Why i cannot get over tension? Why? What happen to me last year during National Selection happened again today. My whole body was super solid in the begining. After that things were slightly better for me. But when i was about to finish, everything went wrong again. Why?Why?Why?
Why i just cannot control myself. I kind of hate myself badly. With my F***ing attitude how can i get into National this year. I can do very well in training but i cannot repeat what i did during competition. Why i just cannot enjoy the process? Why why why?
Should i sleep and never wake up? Should i just give up everything after coming so far? Should I?
I reallly don't know any of the ans.
All of you may think its a normal game but when u step into the lane, holding the ball, preparing to go, the feeling is more tends than watching a person bowl. I just want to get over this tension thing ASAP before the big game which is starting on Monday.
I really hope everything will be right on Monday. I really want it to be right. Or else it will be another downfall for Larry and it maybe worse this time round.
Go away u stupid tension...Larry don't like you at all....
11:47 PM
