Monday, June 13, 2011
Everything seems crushing onto me now... First it was my result, my worse ever results ever since i study which made me have no choice but to quit school as study is not my cup of coffee or should i say the subject i am taking is not wat i am really capable of....
Now my relationship is on the rock... don't wish to write more about this matter...
All i know now is my future has gone back to darkness, i got no sense of direction now, 1 year of brightness but now it has gone back to darkness... i wish i can be like others strong and steady when relationship crushes but i am different from others. i am not that kind of person who put relationship as a play play thing.
But y... y everyone wanna to torture me, what had i done wrong, can i still be happy as before, y everything had been taken away from me, y..y..y..y i must suffer so much... i can't take this kind of torture anymore... i can't take it anymore... i can't smile, even if i smile is all fake... i can't look forward anymore... i see the road dark... very very dark... is this call the end of the world for me.... i don't know... i felt very very lose now...
saying is more easy than done... everyone is telling me to move forward no matter wat... ya i move forward for that very 1 moment but after yesterday, i can't move forward anymore... the biggest defeat i ever met in life, i tot n-level was my defeat and i pick myself up... but now... 2 defeat or maybe even a 3rd one...
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1:20 PM
